Don't Know How To Change These Tides - Bowstring and the Pen
By Eileen Casey 

You take me places I've never been before.
When I'm together with you, the world simply stops.

Feeling so damn tied up inside,
I don't know if I should run and hide.

I want to change calm waters to one's which flow in strong another way.
I'm afraid if I speak up you might go away when I really want you to stay.

Don't know how to make a move to change these tides,
Feeling like a child, oh how I am so tied up inside.

You've got me wondering about things, is this real or just a dream?
I have never clicked like this,
It's so frightening; maybe it's not what it seems.

Don't know how to make a move to change these tides,
Feeling like a child, oh how I am so tied up inside.

I do not know why I reached out to a stranger,
I just know that when I am with you I am safe, I never feel any danger.

If I ask you to stay, would you go away?
Oh how I do want you to stay, I just don't know what to say.

Don't know how to make a move to change these tides,
Feeling like a child, oh how I am so tied up inside.

I like to know your lips, despite how in my time that was a man's place.
Even though I know as a woman, now I can set a faster pace.

Don't know how to make a move to change these tides,
Feeling like a child, oh how I am so tied up inside.

I fear your wholeness and the gifts you place on the table;
I am only a kind heart, shattered by old wars, and thus unstable.

Don't know how to make a move to change these tides,
Feeling like a child, oh how I am so lost inside.

I have stood strong for my friends, gone through wars now and then.
Yet to say what I want with you, I feel like I have to take a pen.

I am much braver than this.
I want to pull the bowstring, but I'm too afraid the target—you—I could miss.

Don't know how to make a move to change these tides,
Feeling like a child, oh how I am so shaking inside.

Not a girl, but a woman with passion who has lived.
One who has had lovers, and friends,
But even though I am so scared, I have so much left to give.

Don't know how to make a move to change these tides,
Feeling like a child, oh how I am so frozen inside.

What the hell is going on, why do I feel so strong?
Please God tell me what's really going on.

Don't know how to make a move to change the tides,
Feeling like a child, oh how I am so tied up inside.

If you reject me I hope you will still stay.
Even though I could not bear it, even if just as a friend, please do not go away.

I guess I am making a move, an attempt to change the tides, but still feeling like a little kid, Babe, I am so tied up inside.

April 8, 2025